Not gonna lie, my "to-do" list is a mile long today, (and everyday) yet my only thoughts at 6:30 am when my alarm went off was "is there any way I can squeeze in some extra sleep this morning?" Didn't help that I didn't go to sleep til 1:30 am, and was awake with my youngest Ari, at 3:30am. She wanted to let me know her night light wasn't working..
Both of my kids are at school, I'm sitting here having "breakfast" I've got an hr and a half before I have to leave to pick up Ari from Pre K. I need to take care of documents to re-list my house for sale, organize myself for the house I'm showing this afternoon, look over classes online, need to fill out student loan application and college application..and list goes on.
It isn't easy being a full time mom, in a single parent household. (They are with their Dad most weekends). I work 3 different jobs, and I'm going back to school in January! Somehow I guess I make this look easy, although the loads of laudry sitting here waiting to be folded, and last night's dinner dishes in the sink speaks different! The sun is peaking out of the clouds for the first time all week, that alone energizes me! I better get started!
Have a blessed day!!! xo (ps. that's my breakfast this am!)
When I was growing up I used to think about maybe someday adopting a baby girl from India. I haven't done that, even though that would change the life of one child, I want to do more than give a life of love to just one child. I hope one day I can open an orphanage there, but more than just that. I want it to be a real home filled with love, and with loving, trusting caregivers.
Besides that, there's still plenty to be done in this country. Everyday there's another story of a child being hurt by the people that are supposed to love them the most, or a mother hurt/killed by domestic violence. I've personally cared for over a dozen other children in my home in a span of a couple years. I was also the victim of domestic violence in my teenage years. More so recently, I've experienced what it's like to be a single parent, and the struggle that comes with that. I am thankful I've always have had an independent spirit, a strong internal drive and a solid head on my shoulders, because it hasn't been easy. Looking forward to the day I can start a non profit of some sort that can be there to support other women&children.
I'm inspired by stories such as "Tom's", and if you know me you know I love the band Hanson. I have always looked up to and held such a great level of admiration for them. Growing up it wasnt just their music that I enjoyed, and wasn't just about their cuteness, (although a factor) it was their passion for what they did. They didn't let their age hinder them, and I loved that. Over the years they started their own organization called TakeTheWalk, where before concerts they would do one mile barefoot walks with their fans. For every fan who walked they would donate $1. This money went to South Africa, to build schools, drill clean water wells, provide shoes, provide medicine to pregnant women to prevent HIV from being passed along to their unborn babies and also to provide cell phone txt msg credits so patients could communicate with their doctors who sometimes live very far away. They've used their music to not only bring joy by also used it to give back.
That's what its all about. It's about finding a way to give back. It doesn't always have to be monetary, but could be as simple as volunteering in your own community at your local shelter, boys &girls club, donating to the food bank, giving away items you no longer need/use.Sometimes it seems like there's so much in this world that needs help, but you cant, they can't, I can't, do it all on our own, but we can all just make a little difference, and it turn it makes a big difference!
I recently decided that I'm going back to college in January. I'll be working towards a degree in elementary education. It's so important to also help yourself. By helping yourself it will allow you to help others. :) http://www.takethewalk.net
Another wicked cool movie from my teenage years! Remember this poem? It has been stuck in my head since!!
I hate the way you talk to me,
and the way you cut your hair.
I hate the way you drive my car,
I hate it when you stare.
I hate your big dumb combat boots
and the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick,
it even makes me rhyme.
I hate the way you’re always right,
I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh,
even worse when you make me cry.
I hate it when you’re not around,
and the fact that you didn’t call.
But mostly I hate the way I don’t hate you,
not even close…
not even a little bit…
not even at all.
So I've read the book, I've seen the movie..loved them both. They offer tons of advice..advice that us girls never take. Spending time with my friends recently, the conversation turned to the men in our lives, as they almost always do. Asking each other opinions of what does he mean when he says "blah blah blah", or "what should I do?" Here some memorable quotes from the movie:
Gigi-- "Girls are taught a lot of stuff growing up: if a boy punches you he likes you, never try to trim your own bangs, and someday you will meet a wonderful guy and get your very own happy ending. every movie we see, every story we're told implores us to wait for it: the third act twist, the unexpected declaration of love, the exception to the rule. but sometimes we're so focused on finding our happy ending we don't learn how to read the signs. How to tell the ones who want us from the ones who don't, the ones who will stay and the ones who will leave. Maybe a happy ending doesn't include a guy, maybe it's you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for something better in the future. Maybe the happy ending is just moving on, or maybe the happy ending is this: knowing after all the unreturned phone calls and broken-hearts, through the blunders and misread signals, through all the pain and embarrassment... you never gave up hope."
Alex-- "So trust me when I say if a guy is treating you like he doesn't give a shit, he genuinely doesn't give a shit. No exceptions." Gigi-- "Maybe his grandma died or maybe he lost my number or is out of town or got hit by a cab..."
Alex-- "Or maybe he is not interested in seeing you again."
OK, seriously..I want to say that every single guy I have ever dated in my life is a complete ass. For real. I don't know why this is so upsetting to me right now. But it is. I won't mention names and I'll spare you details of arguments, beer dumped over head,lies etc..I feel like I've wasted so much time with guys that are not good enough for me. I'm not normally a violent person, but if several were in front of me I'd want to give them a good smack in the head and ask what their problem is or was? I really wished I was a lesbian. Girls are so much cooler, and make better roomates..this is now coming from a chick who has always had a lot of male friends..sigh..where is my former bestie now? oh yeah thats right, I moved away, got married, then he got married, we never talk anymore. Sometimes I miss him. Let me just say this, I am not a needy girl, I am very independant, I know how a guy should treat me, and how I want to be treated so why the hell do I put up with the bullshit? I feel so miserble right now, and that so isn't me. I'm re reading my former post in hopes of reminding myself it could be worse.. I'm thankful for a lot of things in my life, but feel like theres so much missing, or more that I want. Most of it things that money cant buy. "All I want is a little free".. Im going to get some sleep,..see what tomorrow brings. Hoping to go see Jarrod Gorbel play a show in CT. Thank God for these lil escapes, I love music, it helps to express thoughts and emotions, or go to a show and rock out and forget your problems for a few hours.
http://www.youtube.com/embed/9ectP2O1Tps?rel=0
"I'm so sick of being so serious, it's making my brain delirious.." those are words from my good friend Ke$ha..ok well, she's not really a friend of mine, heck, I wouldnt even call myself a fan..I don't really know anything about her... I will say though I am surprisingly a fan of her mindless music:) Sometimes life is tough, let your hair down, have some fun! Remember even on a really bad day there are probably some who have it a lot worse than you. They would probably trade places with you anyday! Live everyday to it's fullest, tell people you love them, and laugh often! Laughter really is the best medicine!
http://www.youtube.com/embed/Q97c5szTgIA?rel=0
